Where is the time going

I just don't understand where the time goes. we have less than 2 weeks until Christmas, and I have less than 2 months until my baby girl is born. I am so not ready for either and I don't feel like there is enough time in the day to get it all done.

Potty training is going ok, but Zach will not tell us that he needs to go so its still taking him to the potty whenever I remember to do it. I could probably do better in that department.

Most nights when I get home from work I don't want to do anything other than sit down and relax, but there is still so much that needs to be done. My ankles are swollen and look like I don't have them anymore. I feel like baby girl is just positioned right on my bladder so I constently have to use the potty. If I drink water to try to help with the swelling then I should just take my laptop in the bathroom with me and sit there because I will be getting up every 5 minutes or less to use the potty. It really is horrible.

On the good side, hubby did finish painting our kitchen and that looks awesome, well as awesome as a small galley kitchen can look. We are hoping to eventually be able to rent our townhome and move into a bigger house, but I guess we should make our townhome presentable first.

I guess I just feel overwhelmed and that there is not enough time in the day to get it all done. But somehow we manage. How will this work when we have two kids and when I want to start going to the gym, because lord knows that I need to work some of this fat off my body. But I just don't see there being any time for me to go do what will need to be done. Maybe I should take up running and get a double stroller and take the kids with me. Any thoughts on that?

Potty training thoughts...

Anyone have any ideas to help me get Zach interested in using the potty. We would really like him to be somewhat potty trained before Amelia arrives. The problem being is that I really don't want to force him, but I do want to nudge him in that direction. He has used the potty twice now in the past two days and we only started trying 3 days ago so we are making some progress.

My daycare provider is awesome. She cheers him on and gives him big boy stickers when he does it. She has such a positive attitude I am happy she is part of our lives and even happier that I now know she will be able to take Amelia. We were a little worried at first, but she will have that infant opening so I am extremely happy that I will not have to be looking for another women that will treat my kids as well as she does.

So if any of you parents that have gone through this whole potty training mess have advice for me please send it on over it is greatly appreciated. I cannot wait for him to be out of diapers. Especially because he doesn't want me to change them anymore.

Our Little Girl!

So its been awhile. Thought I should at least post one entry before I skipped the month of September.

We found out that we are having a little girl and could not be more excited. Although I am a little nervous too. I just don't picture myself doing girl things. Like doing hair and teaching makeup later in life. Dealing with clothes and boy problems. At least I know I have some time before all of that begins.

I look at Zach now and just think what a wonderful big brother he will make. Of course they will fight, what siblings don't fight. But my little boy seems to be very caring when it comes to people's feelings. Maybe its just a phase but I like to think that he will be that sweet to most people.

I just want to add that I absolutley love being a mother. Its the one thing I am good at. I can't think of anything else that I am really good at doing, but being a mother is just something that I love and I want to do the best I can.

One sleeping bag, one pillow, and one blanket...

and we have a new bed for Zach. He doesn't stay in his bed all night and while I don't mind him coming into our room to sleep its getting harder trying to sleep with him in our bed. My belly is growing and I now have my maternity pillow that takes up half the bed. So last night I decided that I was going to lay out my sleeping bag, put a pillow in the floor and then an extra blanket (didn't think Zach would actually get into the sleeping bag). And to my suprise, I woke up to go pee (already happens more than I would like) and Zach was sleeping on the floor on the bed I made for him. Although he was sideways and his head was actually underneath my bed and not on the pillows. So after my potty run I picked him up and laid his head on the pillows and there he stayed all night long (well maybe not on the pillows).

So the first morning, after sleeping on the makeshift bed, he woke up a little after six and asked "where Kenny (aka Kenna from day care) at." I had to laugh. I guess because he naps with Kenna in the room and I think they sleep on the floor in there he automatically assumed he was at day care and he woke up ready to play. I had to explain to him that he was still at home and would see "Kenny" later when we went to day care. He merrily replied "ok."

So all in all this bed has worked out for one night, lets see if it will continue. Maybe he will get tired of sleeping on the floor and then stay in his bed all night. One can dream, right?

August Already

I cannot believe that it is August already. Where is this year going? I feel like as I get older the years go by faster, how is that fair.

On another note, we had a good ending to July. We went on a three night camping trip, which at first we thought might not be to good because we had to set a tent up on gravel (not the most comfortable, don't know why they don't have grass anywhere). But we made it work and it ended up being a fabulous weekend. I wish I had pulled my camera out, but I never even really thought about it. Zach had a couple firsts this weekend. He was stung by a bee, he didn't seem to understand why this bug had hurt him. Good news, he is not allergic. He no longer has to cling to me while in the pool with his float on. He said Chirs, yay, now I just have to get him to say uncle, and he was actually happy to be home when we saw the house on Sunday he was excited and yelled "KIIIIIT."

I also enjoyed seeing all my friends that went camping as well. I still didn't get to spend much time with them. They were so nice though, we had more than one offer to stay in the RVs if we ended up being uncomfortable in the tent, and they all took to Zach really well. I have a good little boy. He is just fun loving and is sweet most of the time. He seems to only show his rotten side to mommy and daddy.

One more month and then we leave for South Carolina. I can't wait for vacation, but I still want time to slow down just a little bit. I want to enjoy every moment I have with Zach. I love that little man more than I ever thought was possible.

12 weeks

I am 12 weeks pregnant today. I just hope that means I will get some of my energy back.

I am also really looking forward to finding out the gender of Poppet this time around. I think it will be fun finding out early. If we decide to have a third at least then I can decide which way I want to go because I have done both.

I told Jesse that if we end up with a girl this time I want to have a yardsale to get rid of some of the stuff we have. We have at least 3, probably more, big totes full of clothes for Zach. But on the other hand if we have a boy we are all set with clothes especially because its the same time of year.

My promise

I want to make a promise to my children. Whenever possible I will be there for you. I will be there as your shoulder to cry on, your answer to questions, your help with math homework (well this might be dad), and anything else you need. I will hold you tight when you have a been hurt, I will rock you to sleep if needed. As your mother it is my responsibility to love you regardless and I will let you know now that you will not be getting rid of me easily.

When I made the decision to have kids, I feel like I also made the decision that no matter what my children would come first in my life. Mommy will go without if there is something that you need and we can provide it for you.

So all of this is coming from Casey Anthony. I really have no clue if she is guilty or not, but something was wrong with that situation. She was not there to care for her little girl and it was her responsibility to do so. How can someone go out and party when they don't even know where their child is. Maybe she believed she was safe with a sitter, but I seriously doubt that one. It just makes no sense in my eyes.

So again, to Zachary, Poppet, and anymore children that I may have. I promise to love you for the rest of your lives because my love won't end even when I pass.