Tuesday, June 5, 2012

So hard

Why does weight loss have to be so hard. I thought quitting smoking would be the hardest thing that I would have to do in my life, but apparently I was wrong. It was easy to quit smoking when comparing it to giving up food. I love food, all food, sweet, salty, bitter, healthy, unhealthy, it doesn't matter I love food. But because I am unhappy with myself right now I have decided that something has to give. I have to be able to control the amount of food I eat and what I eat. But oh, its so hard. Someone once told me that "nothing tastes as good as skinny feels." But in all reality you can't taste skinny. Nothing taste as good as a warm chocolate chip cookie topped with ice cream and chocolate syrup, but alas, that is like 1200 calories so I wouldn't be able to eat anything else all day. I don't think I can deal with that.

I thought that nursing Amelia would help me lose weight, but it doesn't seem to be working. I freak out about exercising because of everything that happened during my labor. So tell me why there can't be a magic pill for being fat. I don't like being fat, but I love food.

My new goal. I want to get down to my high school weight. So is anyone with me. It would be great to hear about other people and their struggles.