I have been told by more than one person in my life that I act older than I am. Not really sure what that means except I would imagine that the people that have told me this think I’m boring and that is a nice way of telling me. Although my brother isn’t nice about it at all he came right out one day and just said you know you are boring. I think we were talking about going to a party or something and I didn’t really want to go. I on the other hand like to think that I have an “old soul.” I like having fun. Going out and having dinner and drinks with friends, having people over the house to play games (card or board), having outings at the beach or the park, and just enjoying other people’s company are all fun activities to me.
Maybe my definition isn’t the best. According to the urban dictionary an “old soul” is:
A spiritual person whom is wise beyond their years; people of strong emotional stability. Basically, someone whom has more understanding of the world around them.
Some people even believe an old soul is a person whom has learned from past incarnations, or lives. They acquired certain knowledge from their past lives and apply it to their present life... thus gaining more wisdom than the average bloke.
I don’t think I am wise beyond my years or that I have been reincarnated from a monk. Actually when I was in grade school the Quija board told me I was a mole in my past life. How about that, I was one of those tiny little animals that my dog chases in the yard. I don’t believe that I have answers that others don’t and I am not even sure if I would want them. I don’t have a great understanding of the world and how it revolves. All I know is that I wake up every morning and make it through the day with the grace of God and hope that he will give me another one to enjoy.
Guess I have to think of a new way of describing myself. Any one have any ideas? But until then I will stick with my own version of “old soul.”
I like laid-back situations where I don’t have to get plastered to have fun but I am not stuck in a library with a book in my face. Although, now that I have a kindle I have a book in my face more than not or at least a kindle in my face. I like Paul Simon, Pride and Prejudice, Michael Jackson (before all the nose jobs). I like having inside jokes that no one else understands and still wouldn’t even if we let them in on it. I love my family and friends with a force that I don’t even understand. But I also don’t feel that I have friends that love me the same way. I know I probably do, but I tend to look down on myself and the way that others see me.
I want to bring back the dresses that women wore in “Gone with the Wind” I want men to be chivalrous. I want people to respect their elders. I want to be able to stay home with my kids (I know some women have this). I don’t want to be judged because I do something different from my friends. I want to be loved and respected.
I want to have friends that even if we don’t talk on a daily basis will make plans at least once a month to go out and catch up on the comings and goings of everyone’s lives. I miss my friends from college and I doubt I will ever talk to them again except for one who I really need to make the 2-hour drive to see. I miss her and think she is awesome.
The more I describe myself maybe “old soul” isn’t the right description maybe I am just “old school.”